JOURNEY to VAST

Day 4, my vision is indeed getting better.. at first i could like feel the slight opening of my pupil forming back.. quite eeriee. no doubt how it has changed my perception recent days. come 1 jun,its has been 5months since i orDed on 1jan.How have I progressed? did I accomplished anything? Yes, I got a good paying job,gotten relevant cmfas papers. fix my eye, now my focus is to earn money.. seeing my bro success in his job. i have no doubt that i have it in me too.. I just have to rough it out.how long i wun know?? but i know I am not alone fighting.. today is the day I started doin chanting again.. I feel nice in a feeling so warm.. I have many things to complete.. now I BEGIN>>.,,,

those were THE happy times??

I am not the one,
misssing ...
just s cover..
in diguise..
happy or sad..
I derive..
surface love..
am i rite??
think too much.
of oneself..
wat can i do more ..??
wat i said and done..
wat i gave and plant..
wat is love without blunt?
wat am I ?
another fun...
another want.
love me grant??

doesn't matter

geebomz will be gg for his cataract surgery on wed. i am worried though i know its a minor surgery.

tonight is yet another sleepless night.

i have made many mistakes in my life. some grave some not so. wasted many years of my youth as well. who is there to blame? no one but myself.

time can heal all wounds people say. its really true. just that after wounds heal, there will be scars left behind. scars which will be there to remind u of things u would rather not be reminded of. remind u that there's an empty place in your heart which no one and nothing can ever fill up.

babies, i miss u so. you were once all i had. no one understands how badly i miss u boys. everyone thinks i am mad. so does gee. and how can i blame anybody? after all, not many people are this pathetic, so much so that they have no one else in this world, so alone, that they give all their love to 3 dogs. every night when i look at your photos, i always wonder if there will ever be a chance i can run my fingers through your fur again. i know there wouldn't be.

i used to say i would hate anyone who took you all away from me. i guess deep down i knew someday it would come true and finally it did. but i hate no one now. hatred is poison. its not healthy.

will i ever recover? will i ever be the same again? but what is 'the same'? haha, its probably been way too long??

yunlei called me the other day. but i din answer, neither did i bother to call back. she was supposedly my best friend. yet i have nothing to say to her. everytime she asks me out, i turn her down. why??? i have no idea myself. i think its because i am not interested in answering questions on how i am etc etc. cos it really doesn't matter how i am anymore.

doesn't matter.

able to see again

today i went ttsh to see doc for my eye.. at last can have an operation this wed. I feel glad in a way that i can manage to see properly again.. just tat i have to wear glasses.. hahah will look funny .. cant really have both worlds. how true..life is as such that u can never have all 3 options.. a) see far b)see at nite without halos and c) able to see near and far but driving at nite would be dangerous as can see headlights HALOS.. having 2 choices is wat i be getting
They are:
1) able to see far away..
2) can drive at nite..
therfore i be wearing glasses forever... wat a change
..

Capturing some Memories..

Scenaries of the great EUROPE!! HURRAY!!! long hair.hahah so silly.. today I was in branch for a week liao... managed to learn new stuff each day ..I felt the pressure at 1st..being new. however,i feel better,more comfortable.hours are long indeed. Anyway the learning curve is always steep.. but i know i can do it.when the time come.. i will den REcieve..

Vesak Day

Usaully we have monday blues but today NO. its a holiday.. I think i have come a long way. accomplishing some of my dreams.. One which I am able to work in town, meet new friends, and also the most important is work in SALes. this is wat i wanted. can be oonsidered as an amazing.. really if i would to tell ppl about my life stories since last year or even 10 years ago.. i would take more than a day to finish talking..so much downs and only getting to ups recently. the road to riches is not easy. but with dee and sam i will make it.. cheers.!!!

at last

finally geebomz passed his final paper. no words can describe how glad and relieved i am. now bomz is off to another journey. his next baby step to his dreams. =) i am truly happy for gee...

its been a year since i replied to gee's email. so much has happened ever since. its unbelievable.

i love you geegee. hope u love me too.

muacks..

Baby Step

YES!!! I made it... passED the last paper.Finally i can cure my eye now...really felt i do the most with Dee endless support.. its was here idea for the A3.. I can not do it without her... she the one!! Some good /bad friends I made.. There is andrew lim no pics of him cos he didnt gradute with us.. but i miss him. He passed his first paper today.. he has a long way but he willl make it. I know he can.. I be waiting my friend.. as for dee All I can say is that I really luv her very much!! marry me some day when u r ready. U are my pillar of support and motivation. We enter the world of happiness thru trials and TESTS..hahha oni me taking the tests pysically but she was always there when I needed someone..

Cool Year ahead !!

its been a year since I started this journey. many things have happened. so much we went thru .i passed my chi today . happy for the day.more things to come. excited by dee saying she wants to invest in Shares or rather make quick bucks. Well, life is such as when u become close to some one u will take new ways of loooking at things tat happens around u ... this is a good sign as we move up to another level of a relationship... haha COOL LEong Leh!!

FRIed DAys

theere are always MOnday blues for everyone..but for me is FRIDAY blues.. yes the opposite aain.. very unusal!!! hahaha

Staying alive

Feels damn goood .passed M9 and M5 liao..damn happy.. 2 more to go.. all these continuing non stop hard work better pay well in future.. CHeong aH!!!
pity for andrew lim, my good friend.. hope he gets over it and try to study AGAIN. but is very painful the feeling.. I can understand..

hell with e M

wat ever M9,m5,m8 and chi.. I coming to get the tickets to my dreams!!!